She sat beside me, looking at me and wondering what I am doing so late night. I was chatting with my She sat beside me, watching me with quiet eyes, probably wondering what I was doing so late at night. I was busy chatting with friends online. She softly said,
“Khyatu dikra, suija… savaare uthvaanu che.”
(Khyatu my child, go to sleep… you have to wake up in the morning.)
I replied, “Yes,” but didn’t bother to switch off the lights or listen to her. Maybe the lights were disturbing her, keeping her from falling asleep. I realize now—she only slept after I did. That night, I chose conversations with friends in faraway countries over talking to her, sitting right next to me.
Those five months I spent at home with her were the best days of my life. She shared stories from her past—stories that I now treasure more than anything. Every time she told me about an incident, I would argue with her, questioning why she always put others before herself. Her motto was simple: keep others happy, even if it means sacrificing your own happiness. I never agreed with it. But she always had a way of calming me down, with her patience and her smile.
Deep inside, I knew I could never live the way she did. If I had faced her struggles, I might have given up long ago.
She never dreamt for herself. She never wished for anything of her own. Her only dream was to see every wish of her family fulfilled. Her only desire was that everyone in the family stayed happy.
What can I say about her? She was my alarm clock. My guiding light. My friend. My shield. My confidence. She was… everything to me.
I could go on writing about her for hours. She is the person I loved the most, and I miss her terribly. Even now, I sometimes feel her presence beside me—watching me when I’m distracted, as if reminding me, “Talk to me instead.”
It may sound emotional, but her passing taught me the biggest lesson of all:
💔 Give your loved ones the time they deserve.
Because once they are gone, no amount of regret can make up for the love and time you didn’t give them when they were still here.
I MISS YOU BA !!! I MISS YOU VERY MUCH !!!!
