The more you do...

The more you talk about it, you think about it.
The more you think about it, you worry about it,
The more you worry about it, you are upset about it,
The more you are upset about it, you don't know what to do.

Like, what to talk?
Like, what to think?
Like, what to do?

and it continues... :(

A Dream

A dream, I see,
A dream, to be free.

A dream, to do something different..
A dream, to prove something...

A dream, which has its own way,
A dream, will take me there someday..

A dream that, gives me hope..
A dream that, has limitless scope...

A dream, to live life,
A dream, to enjoy life.

I really dunno..

What is there on my mind,
I really dunno..

What I wish to do..
I really dunno..

What brings happiness..
What makes me sad..

What will cheer me..
And What will make me smile...

I wish I had the answers..
To all the questions, I really dunno.. :(

After a long time....

Wassup these days???

Planning my Ladakh Trip... my dream trip...
My leaves got sanctioned..
train bookings done..
accomodaton booking in progress...
just cant wait now... :)

and why am I writing this here??
I dunno.. :)

Positive Thinking… Positive energy… Positive Friends….

It was one of the rare occasions, when Martin was talking more than me, sharing his secret on positive living. He said,”I have read somewhere and believe, the whole universe is made up of a single energy. And a person thinking positive will spread a positive energy around and the same is with the negative energy. So the point is, think positive and don’t let negative thoughts come your way and in this way one can spread positive energy everywhere.”

I was obsessed with his thought for several days. I kept on asking him questions,

Day 1:Me: What do you think is the energy now in the world?Martin: More of negative. :)
Day 2:Me: What if you have negative energy around?Martin: Still you can think positive and don’t let negative energy affect you.
Day 3:Me: Sometimes negative vibes give us nightmares.Martin: Always have good thoughts 10 mins. before going to sleep. You won't get nightmares. ” 


I remember one of the conversations; I had with AK long time back on the same topic,

AK: Katz, why so people go to temple?
AK: u know?
Katz: nope
Katz: I don’t believe in going to temple.
Katz: I go because my parents ask me to go.
AK: What do u think, why people go to temple?
Katz: I sometimes feel... they find peace there
AK: ya exactly but why there?
Katz: because they think they will find god there
AK: na, but why they get peace there?
AK: one of the reasons for getting peace is...
Katz: is?
AK: in temple everyone thinks of only good things.
AK: When I say good things they may be thinking selfish but doesn’t want to harm anyone...
AK: everybody call for god...
AK: when it happens in a volume
AK: that will create a positive energy in the surrounding...
Katz: but why so?
AK: so when u step into the temple area u will also get that +ve energy.
AK: why coz, one reason is everybody thinks good...
AK: everyone comes there with the feeling that they can find solution for their problems there
AK: again +ve thinking
AK: that will create some energy there... it’s a law.........
AK: when material things and lucks doesn’t favor, then people automatically turns to spiritual...
AK: they totally rely on god... its human tendency that people feel, they get solution
Katz: true.
Katz: very true
....
....

This reminded me of my two friends AB and Irshad.
AB: A healer. She is such positive vibes that one feels happy and positive in her presence. 
Irshad: a positive one always.. especially during my exam times :P.


Read this somewhere:
“Being positive or negative are habits of thoughts that have a very strong influence on life.” 

I BELIEVE: 

It’s all power of your thinking, your thoughts, your energy and your positive friends who make a great impact on your life. And I am glad to have many such people in my life.

“Positive thinking is expecting, talking and visualizing with certainty what you want to achieve, as an accomplished fact.”

Cheers to all my positive friends.!!!!!

Somethings somewhere...

Somethings somewhere had started,
Somethings somewhere went ahead.

Somethings somewhere were enjoyed,
Somethings somewhere were memorized,

Somethings somewhere were forgotten,
Somethings somewhere were remembered,

Somethings somewhere had to end,
Somethings here did end.

A Lesson I Learnt Too Late !! (for my grandmom)

She sat beside me, looking at me and wondering what I am doing so late night. I was chatting with my She sat beside me, watching me with quiet eyes, probably wondering what I was doing so late at night. I was busy chatting with friends online. She softly said,

“Khyatu dikra, suija… savaare uthvaanu che.”

(Khyatu my child, go to sleep… you have to wake up in the morning.)

I replied, “Yes,” but didn’t bother to switch off the lights or listen to her. Maybe the lights were disturbing her, keeping her from falling asleep. I realize now—she only slept after I did. That night, I chose conversations with friends in faraway countries over talking to her, sitting right next to me.

Those five months I spent at home with her were the best days of my life. She shared stories from her past—stories that I now treasure more than anything. Every time she told me about an incident, I would argue with her, questioning why she always put others before herself. Her motto was simple: keep others happy, even if it means sacrificing your own happiness. I never agreed with it. But she always had a way of calming me down, with her patience and her smile.

Deep inside, I knew I could never live the way she did. If I had faced her struggles, I might have given up long ago.

She never dreamt for herself. She never wished for anything of her own. Her only dream was to see every wish of her family fulfilled. Her only desire was that everyone in the family stayed happy.

What can I say about her? She was my alarm clock. My guiding light. My friend. My shield. My confidence. She was… everything to me.

I could go on writing about her for hours. She is the person I loved the most, and I miss her terribly. Even now, I sometimes feel her presence beside me—watching me when I’m distracted, as if reminding me, “Talk to me instead.”

It may sound emotional, but her passing taught me the biggest lesson of all:

💔 Give your loved ones the time they deserve.

Because once they are gone, no amount of regret can make up for the love and time you didn’t give them when they were still here.

I MISS YOU BA !!! I MISS YOU VERY MUCH !!!!