A Lesson I Learnt Too Late !! (for my grandmom)

She sat beside me, looking at me and wondering what I am doing so late night. I was chatting with my She sat beside me, watching me with quiet eyes, probably wondering what I was doing so late at night. I was busy chatting with friends online. She softly said,

“Khyatu dikra, suija… savaare uthvaanu che.”

(Khyatu my child, go to sleep… you have to wake up in the morning.)

I replied, “Yes,” but didn’t bother to switch off the lights or listen to her. Maybe the lights were disturbing her, keeping her from falling asleep. I realize now—she only slept after I did. That night, I chose conversations with friends in faraway countries over talking to her, sitting right next to me.

Those five months I spent at home with her were the best days of my life. She shared stories from her past—stories that I now treasure more than anything. Every time she told me about an incident, I would argue with her, questioning why she always put others before herself. Her motto was simple: keep others happy, even if it means sacrificing your own happiness. I never agreed with it. But she always had a way of calming me down, with her patience and her smile.

Deep inside, I knew I could never live the way she did. If I had faced her struggles, I might have given up long ago.

She never dreamt for herself. She never wished for anything of her own. Her only dream was to see every wish of her family fulfilled. Her only desire was that everyone in the family stayed happy.

What can I say about her? She was my alarm clock. My guiding light. My friend. My shield. My confidence. She was… everything to me.

I could go on writing about her for hours. She is the person I loved the most, and I miss her terribly. Even now, I sometimes feel her presence beside me—watching me when I’m distracted, as if reminding me, “Talk to me instead.”

It may sound emotional, but her passing taught me the biggest lesson of all:

💔 Give your loved ones the time they deserve.

Because once they are gone, no amount of regret can make up for the love and time you didn’t give them when they were still here.

I MISS YOU BA !!! I MISS YOU VERY MUCH !!!!

Lost & Found!!

It’s sometimes strange how things happen to us. I was sitting at my desk, waiting someone to come online and chat but no one did come. This continued for many days. And suddenly one day I find so many people pinging me and asking about me. This made me happy.

Well, I don’t know why I am writing this. Suddenly I am meeting so many people in life. And the people will be old friends to whom you haven’t spoken for years. It’s like where did they all disappeared for years and where were they when I needed someone to talk too.

But I am glad I have found them and they have progressed in their lives.I am very happy today meeting many of my friends all at once.

Sitting on a bench,

I waited for you my friend,

To share my happiness,

And to share my pain.

I kept waiting,

No one turned up,

You were busy,

And the time was up.

I passed my days,

With my loneliness,

But still was happy,

That’s what is called craziness.

Now you all came at once,

When I started living with it,

As if after years, your work is over,

And you are not busier with it.

But still I am happy,

My friend you are back,

As I don’t want this friendship to break,

Not even want a single crack.

Away from home

Away from home,
Always wanted to be,
Thought would enjoy the freedom,
And I could be me.

Away from home,
Thought will be more independent,
Will learn to take responsibilities,
And be more confident.

Away from home,
Thought will make my own world,
Will enjoy life to the fullest,
And learn to be bold.

Away from home,
I have been,
Its a different new world,
I have seen.

Away from home,
Will have fun I thought,
It's complete opposite,
What I have got.

Away from home,
Now I don't want to be,
And I hope not,
I am fortuned to be.

A Poem for you...

I remember the days we spent,
I remember the places we went.

I remember the long talks we had,
I remember the arguments that made you mad.

I remember the stories which you left half,
I remember the jokes on which we had a laugh.

I remember how much I was dependent on you,
The decisions I have taken without you are few.

Today what happened, I don’t know whether its right,
But just wish for your future to be bright.

I am scared of thinking my days without you,
I have loved you always and will be loving you.

The days were bad and I made it worst,
Today after long time in tears I burst.

If you can forgive me I would be glad,
I promise that you won’t have complaints that you had.

A Differrent Day!!!!

Day seems to be so different,
What I want to do I am not able to do,
I am doing something,
What I am not suppose to do.

Seriously, I m just sitting at my desk,
Feeling as if the moment is been caught,
I want something,
But I don’t know what.

Opened a book to read,
But didn’t manage to read a single word,
Came online to chat,
But then got easily bored.

I am still trying to figure out,
What am I trying to get,
But I think,
The best solution is to forget.

What I am trying to search,
Will finally go in vain,
And it won’t give me anything,
Other than pain.

Katz dear,
Just go and relax,
Don’t think much,
Worrying about the climax.

Promises…

Promises… This is what we have to give to make people trust us.
We promise a person when he/she wants to tell us the secret.
We promise when we want the other person to believe what we are saying or doing.
But how well do we keep it??

We have always said this as a kid and even now..
“God Promise, I didn’t do it!!”
“Promise me, you won’t tell anyone??”

If you don’t keep your promise… Then the worst thing will happen to you that’s what the belief is.

I am not saying that I have broken everyone’s promise. Don’t be scared after reading this. I was just thinking how convenient it is stop people spreading your secrets or make people believe you. You tell that person to swear and you believe him/her.

Is it like you didn’t trust him/her before he/she promised?

Promise is an amazing thing…
If you promise and break it i.e. if you give a False Promise then he/she looses the trust.
If you don’t promise then he/she won’t trust you ever.

I remember my friend saying “Promises are meant to be broken.” So how often do you keep it???

Dad !!!

You taught me to be myself,

You taught me all the goodness in life,

You taught me to be right,

You are the integral part of my life.

You are the one with whom I had major arguments,

You are the one with whom I have fought the most,

You are the one with whom I didn’t talk for months,

But still you are the one I love the most.

I know we got close very late,

As I was scared of you when I was kid,

But now there is nothing more important than you,

And it is only happiness I wish to bid.

I know you have strive hard for us,

Got out of your way to protect us,

Sacrificed your dreams for us,

There is nothing that you didn’t do for us.

I just can’t imagine,

My life without you,

My life is the best,

Having a Dad like you.

I Love You Papa!!!